Mimpi buruk itu menyerang saya kembali. Membuat saya terbangun di malam hari. Rasanya ingin menangis dan membuat saya merasa betapa hal itu terasa semakin jauh saja untuk dijangkau.
Merasa gagal?
Ya.
Tetapi saya merasa sarat hikmah.
Mungkin saya merasa kehilangan diri saya, tetapi saya yakin saya akan menjadi yang lebih baik lagi, insyaAllah.
Walau begitu, saya tidak akan pernah berhenti dan takut untuk bermimpi. Saya akan menggenggamnya. Merindu untuk memeluk dirinya akan terus berlanjut :)
Karena itu, di sepertiga malam tadi saya ucapkan pinta:
Jika ia berada di atas langit sana, maka turunkanlah
Jika ia berada di dalam bumi, ku pinta ya Allah, keluarkanlah
Jika ia berada jauh, maka dekatkanlah
Jika ia sulit kugapai, kumohon, mudahkanlah
Hari ini saya tidak mau ada hal-hal yang mengganggu saya. Maka saya putar dan nyanyikan lagu ini keras-keras:
This is a call to the colorblind
This is an IOU
I'm stranded behind the horizon line
Tied up in something true
Yes I'm grounded
Got my wings clipped
I'm surrounded by all this pavement
Guess I'll circle
While I'm waiting for my fuse to dry
Chorus:
Someday I'll fly
Someday I'll soar
Someday I'll be so damn much more
Cause I'm bigger than my body gives me credit for
Why is it not the time?
What is there more to learn?.. yeah
I shed this skin I've been tripping in
Never to quite return
Yes I'm grounded
Got my wings clipped
I'm surrounded by all this pavement
Guess I'll circle
While I'm waiting for my fuse to dry
Someday I'll fly
Someday I'll soar
Someday I'll be so damn much more
Cause I'm bigger than my body gives me credit for
Cause I'm bigger than my body now
Maybe I'll tangle in the power lines
And it might be over in a second's time
But I'll gladly go down in a flame
If a flame's what it takes to remember my name
To remember my name, yeah
Yes I'm grounded
Got my wings clipped
I'm surrounded by all this pavement
Guess I'll circle
While I'm waiting for my fuse to dry
Waiting for my fuse to dry
Someday I'll fly
Someday I'll soar
Someday I'll be so damn much more
Cause I'm bigger than my body
I'm bigger than my body
I'm bigger than my body now
This is an IOU
I'm stranded behind the horizon line
Tied up in something true
Yes I'm grounded
Got my wings clipped
I'm surrounded by all this pavement
Guess I'll circle
While I'm waiting for my fuse to dry
Chorus:
Someday I'll fly
Someday I'll soar
Someday I'll be so damn much more
Cause I'm bigger than my body gives me credit for
Why is it not the time?
What is there more to learn?.. yeah
I shed this skin I've been tripping in
Never to quite return
Yes I'm grounded
Got my wings clipped
I'm surrounded by all this pavement
Guess I'll circle
While I'm waiting for my fuse to dry
Someday I'll fly
Someday I'll soar
Someday I'll be so damn much more
Cause I'm bigger than my body gives me credit for
Cause I'm bigger than my body now
Maybe I'll tangle in the power lines
And it might be over in a second's time
But I'll gladly go down in a flame
If a flame's what it takes to remember my name
To remember my name, yeah
Yes I'm grounded
Got my wings clipped
I'm surrounded by all this pavement
Guess I'll circle
While I'm waiting for my fuse to dry
Waiting for my fuse to dry
Someday I'll fly
Someday I'll soar
Someday I'll be so damn much more
Cause I'm bigger than my body
I'm bigger than my body
I'm bigger than my body now
John Mayer, Bigger Than My Body